Coventry

Monday and I didn't want to leave the house, I was in full fright mode about my upcoming trip. I was exactly the same before I left Japan. Betsy was all excited and bouncing around and I was just plain worried, no excitement. I don't know why, but I just stress and don't want to go. I think it' s because I am way outside my comfort zone or something. I never used to be this way, before I was always excited about trips. It may be because all of my previous trips were a lot shorter and a lot better planned than this one. I haven't planned anything and so I feel out of control, I need to have some sense of control to feel safe.I wasn't feeling safe.
In the evening I went grocery shopping again with Darren, it's something I do enjoy. Very ordinary and very safe.The next day I got myself together and went into town, I had things to do. I got my coach ticket to the airport, my international drivers licence and a few other things. I was finally getting ready for my first trip to the U.S. Maybe it would be ok. I spent the evening at home with Darren, which was where I really wanted to be. Now that I had a time limit on my stay in the U.K I wanted to spend as much time as possible with Darren. I always miss him more than I realise, he has such an easy way of making me laugh and smile.
Wednesday was not an exciting day, but peaceful. I did some washing, cooked dinner and snuggled up to my man in the evening. A good day.